Damn elbow

typing with one hand since surgery on june 18. have endured pain and 2 casts since then. staples will be removed on thursday and yet another cast! no improvement yet in the numbness in my fingers, but the doctor did say it would take awhile. yet more braces for my legs on the 7-28. maybe this will help me walk without seeming to be drunk. have night braces, but i can't wear them because they are so cumbersome. so i just keep feet from pointing down by using pillows to keep the feet from pointing down ballerina-wise. this ordeal has been going on since 10-08, but i'm steadily getting better. back to the neurologist on the 22nd and see what he says about improvements. probably not much. since he doesn't know what caused critical illness polyneuropathy. i am thankful that i can walk again, as that was a nightmare that i didn't know would end. thank god, it did.

Had a long talk with Karen yesterday and I've decided to visit Ricky and Butch after my elbow surgery (Thursday) and some recoup time. I'm anxious about this, but I feel it is something that I must do. Actually, it's something I want to do. Anyone that knows me and what my family has gone through will understand why I'm nervous about this.

I was distressed to learn about Karen's health problems. She is so young, only 37, and is having health problems that I did not have until my 50's. I'm sad that I've lost contact with my family members, but I have to avoid all the drama to conserve my sanity. Maybe enough time has passed. I'm delighted that April sent me a kiss on facebook and we chatted via e-mail. It sounds as though she is doing well and is trying to adopt a baby.